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Nov 4 2017, 18:33
  • amanda Newbie

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    I can't believe I'm actually doing this right now, but I guess its better than going to a counselor and having them look at me with sympathy. I'm not sure if anyone will read this let alone respond. For starters, I am 18 years old and I would say I have a drinking problem. It's actually something that hasn't been going on for a long time, but the first time that I drank was the best feeling I have ever felt in my life. I ended up drinking so much I was blackout drunk. Since then I have been drinking constantly. Anywhere and any time of the day. It's just so easy to drink and forget about life. The most selfish thing about most of this is that there are millions of people who would want my life, and I'm wasting it on drinking myself until I'm sick. Nobody besides my best friend knows about the issue, probably because she coincidentally has the same one. I would never harm myself because I couldn't bring myself to do it, but if I could snap my fingers and end my life I would. I guess that's why drinking has become so appealing to me in the first place. It's an escape from my own self-pity. Right now my life is actually what most people would describe as pretty good; a wonderful boyfriend, good friends, work, and college but for some reason, none of that fills the anger and sadness that I feel. I worried that eventually, this drinking problem is going to escalate band I'm going to hurt either or an innocent person. Typing this has been relieving because hopefully somebody out there will read this and know a secret that my own family doesn't even know. Although I didn't really have a question, I would like to hear what others have to say or maybe even the advice they may have to offer.