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May 28 2013, 09:49
  • Lsmith Newbie

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    Hi,
    I wanted to get this out on here as anything going on a permanent medical record could seriously effect any future career I may want to pursue.

    The backstory;

    Me and my wife (were both 25) have just moved into a leased pub to try and get it up and running again. We have an investors who is supposed to be silent...
    It's now turned out that she has gotten herself another job, leaving me to work over 105 hours a week for roughly £1.36 an hour.
    On top of that she has just begun treatment for cervical cancer.

    I'm completely run down and exhausted, and not able to give her any attention and find myself snapping at her a lot, whic to be fair she does I me also.

    It's gotten to the point where I am seriously considering giving the pub up as I still on a temp lease because it is killing our marriage and my sanity. However as she has told me if I do that she will lose all respect for me and thin of me as a failure.

    THE WORRY;

    The real worry however is that I have began seeing and hearing things and having some extremely violent and macabre dreams and thoughts in which I see te pub burning down with everyone I know and love trapped inside. The thing which ... I know isn't right is that I feel nothing but calm during the whole thing. This has been a recurring dream every other night or so.

    I'm basically imprisoned in a place which is draining all life from me and I'm beginning to thin that in order to save anything drastic happening, it would be better to ... Not be around anymore.

    I don't even have the money to up sticks and leave.

    I guess this isn't too normal a thing but I really don't know what to do about it.

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