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Aug 20 2012, 01:38
  • Pierce Newbie

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    I am nothing special. I work nights stocking a cooler for a general store. During the day I spend all my time counting calories, and hating myself for even eating. I eat maybe 140 calories a day, but today I ate 218 calories. I feel like a fat cow. I am pretty much skin and bones; that's what everyone says. I have no friends because that would conflict with my routine. Food scares the hell out of me, and I don't want to be forced into any direction that would cause me to eat more than my rules. So I don't go out in public to eat anymore. I usually get rude comments at the grocery store about my physical appearance . I hate going anywhere at this point. I can't stop it at this point, and I am not sure even If I wanted to. I know it's a problem for the outside world , but it's the only thing that makes me feel safe .
  • Ginny MODERATOR

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    Aug 20 2012, 11:32
    You are very sick, you need a doctor ASAP.
    • Pierce Newbie

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      Aug 20 2012, 13:48
      Yeah, I go to doctors and they don't seem to care. This is not how or what I wanted for my life. You don't have a clue what I've been through either.
  • Ginny MODERATOR

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    Aug 20 2012, 14:06
    Ironically, sometimes when doctors show caring too much it makes patients sicker, because then the patient wants to maintain their sickness in order to keep getting the nurturing from the doctor, among other things. Have you seen a psychiatrist? Or tried an eating disorders group? Sometimes you can set it up to get your meds from your psychiatrist, support and affection from a support group and a therapist. It takes more than a doctor to cure an eating disorder; it takes a lot, but it can happen. Just like really bad things can happen, so can really good things.

    I never said I had a clue what you have been through, btw. I am sure it was very bad though, because some of the things I've been through have been unthinkable, so I know the *unthinkable can happen firsthand.
  • Ahmad Contributor

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    Apr 18 2013, 23:02
    you don't need to see a doctor. you need yourself. you need to think for a second. and just think about why people stare at you. i am scared of food, and i'm a guy, i use to be fat and everyone use to make fun of my weight, (i had cancer and was on steroids) so from then on, i stopped eating. and everyone asks why i'm so skinny, but all i see in the mirror is the fat, ugly me. and i just came to conclusion, i love food. so why not eat food with low calories! i've started to eat raw vegetables and fruits. and my body looks so much better and healthier! i stay full for a longer time, my skin has become healthier, and i have more energy. because of that, my confidence has increased. i've started to feel invincible and i can careless with what people have to say about me. i'm not anorexic. i was just scared. scared of peoples comments. scared of not looking good for the public. and maybe with the money you saved up, get a haircut, do something new that's crazy. go to the mall, walk with great posture and show who's the boss. buy trending clothes. you want people to become attracted to you. and then they'll start to wish they looked something like you. and that's how i did it!
  • Merry Contributor

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    Apr 19 2013, 02:51
    I totally agree with ahmad! that's the way to go with life. You have the right to live your life the way you want but offcourse not by being aloof from outside world, but by guaging yourself to have a good fit with healthy living. If you think you are fat, meditation is one of the ways through which you can start off with managing health and fitness, include some sports to your daily routine. The sooner you realize that your inner self is motivated and geared up to move in your social circle, the lesser you will limit yourself to your home. And I believe everyone is special in his or her own way to someone. No one would come to your doorstep and tell you that , we have to move in the crowd and to make others realize our existence. It's not that people don't care or don't know you. Like you said when you go out for grocery... Why not taking an initiative to challenge yourself? just start doing something productive, have a breath of fresh air, stop thinking about others at this time, go out do whatever you want to. Also, joining an eating disorder group is also a good way where you can discuss and can have effective guidance from group mates.
  • DacodeeDoll Newbie

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    Apr 11 2016, 15:35
    You are just as special as everyone else! Noneone is better than you. We are all human and we are all the same. Just some people with money or who have a good body just feel better about themselves. But in Reality it does not make them better. I'm a little overweight and I don't give a shit. Screw anyone who doesn't like me!

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