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I live in my own fantasy world

Depression

Jul 19 2018, 05:56
  • Laurel Newbie

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    Basically, I pretend fictional characters are watching me pretty much 24/7. This started when I was about 10 and that’s when I started developing my depression symptoms. I have been diagnosed with depression, generalized anxiety disorder, and add by multiple doctors. I’ve taken medication in the past, the fantasizing never went away. I realize it’s stupid but it doesn’t really interfere with my life, I find it to be fun most of the time. It only bothers me because I can’t truly be comfortable alone or with other people. The only time I feel like I have privacy is when I’m in a small, enclosed space like a bathroom. I pretend that the characters are sort of ghosts I can’t see but they can see me and I talk indirectly to them a lot by talking to myself, usually about myself, because I want them to know more about me and like me. I know I sound SO crazy, this has been my life for the past 7 years and I feel like I am the only person in the world that does this. I can’t find anything like my situation on the internet. I’m an only child and I’ve never had very many friends. I think this manifested as a result of extreme loneliness and a very active imagination but I need to know, am I insane?? I’ve had a handful of therapists in my life and I’ve always been too embarrassed to tell them. I’ve never told anyone about this. I’m so afraid of telling anyone and I feel like I will never know. Should I stop? Is this normal?
  • Pumba Contributor

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    Jul 23 2018, 22:09
    The fact that you are stating all these things about yourself proves your not insane, your perfectly normal and these kinds of things do manifest themselves almost specifically because of loneliness I talk to myself too plenty of people do but I can see how in a social setting it can be very awkward I have a similar issue but I'm more inside my head about it if you know what I mean, I personally see it as me talking to my conscience rather than other voices. Human beings are meant to be social so being lonely definitely can make things worse try exercise I'm almost sure you should have at least some positive effects and try and talk to more people even if you don't want to so you can begin to develop social skills but hey
    if you can't I'm always here if u need me my name is Brandon btw

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